I tried my first experience with mindfulness this morning!
I bought this book: – How Mindfulness Can Change Your Life in 10 Minutes a Day, A Guided Meditation by Andy Puddicombe
For the first time I feel like I really accomplished something. It was such a pleasant experience when I followed the steps. I felt so much at peace when I finished. No super thing happened, I just became aware of the moment that I was in. I was supposed to set a timer for 10 minutes, but I didn’t want to wake my husband, so I just let go. I was “in the moment” for 14 minutes.
I did feel an excessive love and actual arms around me when I began to become aware of my body. Then my mind peacefully wandered to the fear I feel inside. This feeling kind of stuck with me. I didn’t try to control anything. I just felt. Many fears.
I am definitely covering by “acting” fearless all the time. Maybe I will just try to feel what I’m feeling and acknowledge it. Allow the fear to be inside me, but not to control me. During meditation, I knew I was safe and comfortable. It was okay to feel anything because nothing would happen.
Isn’t it true with all the happenings in my life that I have passed through horrible things and I am still here, still living, breathing, even happy. I thoroughly enjoyed this moment of mindfulness. I am going to continue this practice and see how it affects me in the future.